It's such an odd feeling, especially considering my personal circumstances. Things are going so well right now in my personal life, I'm happy in a relationship for the first time in a long time, really happy. But I still feel unsettled. Tonight, I figured out why. I like to have a plan and I like to know what's going to happen. Right now, there is something in my life that is completely beyond my control and I have no idea if or when something will happen.
Most people who know me know what that thing is and while it's something I'm not comfortable sharing in a public forum, please know it's not about my personal life. As I said, that's going great!
But still... feeling unsettled. I have a big problem with not being in control over my own circumstances. I feel very uncomfortable when I can't make decisions for myself or when I feel like I'm waiting for something. And that's just how I feel in this situation... waiting to see what is going to happen.
I know exactly how you feel, I'm that way too and normally at the least I like to have a back-up plan, but I've been slowly learning that there's times when I need to just be ok with the lack of plan, or the unsettled feeling takes over. Hope things resolve themselves for you soon!
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