Thursday, May 31, 2007
In other news, I think Summer is finally ready to send out again. I didn't think the rejection bothered me that much, but I think if I'm really honest, seeing that letter made me lose confidence in the story, and in all the stories I planned for the series. I can't let that happen. It was the first of what I'm sure will become many rejections, and writers should have thick skin. Rejection doesn't mean your writing is bad, it just means it didn't fit what they were looking for at the time. Sure, it probably means you need to improve your submission packet, but one rejection doesn't doom a project. I have to keep telling myself that, because seeing that letter still makes me a little sad. But I keep going. I will keep submitting my work until someone, somewhere, decides it's good enough to publish!
But back to Script Frenzy, I'm really excited about doing something new. My first script. I wonder how it will turn out...
My horoscope today said this:
The solar system is shifting gears today, dear Scorpio, and it is liable to trigger a great transformation that will last seven months. The change will center on the means you use to fulfill yourself, in terms of both your career and your love life. If you feel somewhat hemmed in by your training or your upbringing, you can expect to seek liberation from these inhibitions in the months to come.
I find that very interesting. I could actually use a transformation, something to shake things up. Although it isn't career or relationship focused, my involvement with community theatre is certainly shaking things up. I certainly find it fulfilling. Perhaps this renewed commitment to writing will also shake things up a little. Actually, I'm sure it will.
So here's to transformation! I hope it doesn't hurt... :)
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
We're having a little trouble picking a musical. There are some limitations that we have to deal with, mostly relating to space. The theatre is small, and because of the orientation of the stage it's a very intimate space. There isn't a lot of room for large casts, complex chorus dance numbers, or large orchestras. This limits musicals severely, I'm afraid. I would love to do Guys and Dolls, but I'm not sure it would work in the space. After the meeting, I decided to concentrate on musicals, since it's the thing we're having the most trouble finding. I found about ten musicals that sound good and emailed them to the head of the committee. I hope she likes some of them!
Besides Misery, I'm going to read a play called 100 Lunches and one called The Clean House. I don't know anything about them, so I'm looking forward to reading over them and seeing what they are all about. I'm also reading The Honky Tonk Angels, which is a musical. This is so much fun! I'm so glad I'm able to be a part of this committee, to make a contribution to the arts in my community. This is a step in the right direction for me. Getting involved in things is a good step.
Reading all these scripts is actually great research for Script Frenzy, since I've decided to write a stage script. And we all know how much I love research!
Tomorrow should be pretty good. Work is getting better now that the fundraiser is over. Things have calmed down considerably and now I can start on some projects I've been wanting to start. I have a grant to finish tomorrow and then another one to start before I leave for my vacation. It's due two weeks after I get back, but I want a good headstart on it before I go. That's one thing about vacations, you have to work so hard to get ready for them and then you have to catch up when you get back! Oh well, it will be totally worth it to have some relaxation. Speaking of vacation, only 19 days until we leave!
I say I should have known, but how could I? He wore the mask so well, so perfectly, that it was seamless and impossible to detect. At the time, I wore no masks, had no persona that I donned only for him or for anyone else. Young and innocent of such adult matters, I openly displayed my true self to the world. It was only after being with him that I began to put on my own masks. The mask of the "good wife" who cooks and cleans and never asks questions. The mask of the "cheerleader" who would always encourage, even when she needed encouragement. The mask of the "saint" who never said a bad thing about anyone else, who never even had a bad thought about anyone. Those masks were so easy to slip on, and I put them on willingly. Anything to save a young marriage. Anything to make the dream come true. His mask was more deceptive because his covered everything he was and everything he wanted, but mine were more damaging to me than his was to him. My true self died beneath those masks, his only waited beneath his. We wore our masks willingly, happily even.. for a short time. One day, he grew tired of his and chose to strip it off and allow his true self to show. There was no room for me in his life then, not the me I was before the masks or the masked me standing before him. Realizing they did nothing to help, I removed mine as well. Stripped of my masks, I had no idea what to do with myself. Alone, naked to the world with no sense of self, I chose to rebuild. It was (and still is) a journey of self discovery. I have experienced an awakening of my true self through writing, photography, creative crafts, and education. I have become myself again, only a stronger, more honest version of myself that I am unashamed to show to the world. Do I still wear masks? We all do. I would be dishonest if I said no. I sometimes put on a mask of confidence when I'm not feeling particularly confident. I adopt certain personas in certain situations because they are required. The difference now is that I wear the masks, they do not wear me. I can slip them off and not be naked. My sense of self is strong and will not be denied. I think he is still searching for his sense of self. I know he has put his mask back on a few times since he first removed it, but he has since removed it again. I wish him luck on this journey and hope he finds his true self one day.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
I left work a little later than usual and started laundry when I got home. I worked on Under the Magnolia Tree for about an hour, which was good. After that, I checked the Script Frenzy site for new posts, answered a few, and settled down to work on the last miter in my first square. I stopped for a moment when my phone rang. It was a wrong number. When I picked it back up, I started purling back over the stitches I had just done. When I finally realized my mistake, I had to basically rip half the row. How annoying! That's why I don't like to stop in the middle of a row. So I fixed that and kept knitting. At the color change, I stopped to turn on Lost and then decided to post to the blog before it got too late. So that's what I'm doing now! I'll go back to the miter when I'm finished here. Hopefully I'll have a finished square to post sometime soon! It has taken me way too long to knit this first square! Of course, considering that this was my first attempt at a more complex project, I think it's actually going well.
So overall, not a bad day really. Tomorrow should be even better.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
The other thing I did while waiting for my prescription was a trip to the post office. I mailed my CaC swap for the month! Nina, this means you should get it by the end of the week! I hope you like! After I know she got it, I'll post pictures, because I'm kind of proud of it.
So after all that, I came home and crashed again, mostly because of the allergies and residual exhaustion from the migraine and the medicine. I'm up again for awhile because I have to do some laundry before I go to sleep tonight. I have absolutely nothing to wear to work tomorrow!
First: List 7 random facts/habits about yourself.
1. I am becoming just like my mother, and I'm not upset about that!
2. I like to eat Hershey's chocolate and cheddar cheese together for a snack (really, it's good!)
3. Three times in my life, I've a dream that someone died, and then three days later, they did.
4. I dream in vivid color and surround sound.
5. My favorite perfume is Beautiful.
6. I have a countdown clock on my computer desktop. It is counting down the days until my summer vacation and the release of the last Harry Potter book.
7. I have a collection of postcards from everywhere I've been. One day, I'm going to do something really cool with them, but I haven't figured out what yet.
Second: Choose another SEVEN bloggers to tag and list their names in your blog.
Third: Leave your seven tagged bloggers comments to notfiy them of their tagging and to direct them to your blog for tag instructions.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
Another thing I've been doing lately is writing!!! I actually got back to it about a week ago, and I feel so much better about everything! For some reason, writing just makes everything all right. I get very stressed and tense when I go a long period of time without writing. So I worked a little on Under the Magnolia Tree. The 50,000 words for NaNo last year were not enough. It's looking like it will be more like 75,000. Some crazy things are happening in the story, and I love it! I did some character work on my Script Frenzy piece. I think the title is going to be Tightly Knit. My basic plot so far involves six women of various ages who come together through a knitting circle. They form friendships and learn more about each other, and as they do they find that each one has some kind of secret. One woman's secret could end her life, especially if her new friends don't intervene. Anyway, the plot isn't fully formed yet, but that's the basic idea. I actually drew a diagram of the stage, which was cool.. made it seem more real, you know? I'm excited for June to start, because I'd like to start working on this story. But for now, I'll work on finishing Under the Magnolia Tree.
Work was pretty good this week. It was a long week, for some reason. I'm actually going in tomorrow too, for our National Association of Letter Carriers Food Drive. It's the only Saturday I have to work out of the entire year, and I like it that way! This food drive is so important to us, and it's always a fun day, so I don't mind going to work at all. I usually spend most of the day walking around taking pictures of everyone volunteering, and watching out for the media so that if they come I can give them press releases and find someone to talk to them. Our executive director is usually the one who goes on camera, so if he's there I'll get him to do it. It's a really big deal for us, but unfortunately two big things are happening in the city right now that might trump our food drive. A new steel plant was just announced in Mobile, so that was on the news all day today and will probably be on the news all day tomorrow. Also, a hotel is opening tomorrow in Mobile. Not just any hotel, though, this one is a renovation of a very fancy hotel (the hub of Mobile's social activity in its day) that closed about 30 years ago. The Battle House Hotel is just one of the projects that will hopefully revitalize downtown. From what I saw on the news this morning, it looks absolutely beautiful. Mobile needed something like this. Now if we get that second cruise ship and some of the other interesting projects that are being discussed, Mobile might actually be a cool place to live after all! I do hope we are going in that direction, because it really is a nice location - near the water, nice weather, great people - and all the wonderful small towns that surround Mobile have so much character! One day very soon, I'm going to take a photo tour of Fairhope so I can share its beauty and character with everyone here. Maybe that can be my project next Saturday. I do love projects!
Tomorrow will be the nation's largest annual food drive, so if you are reading this, and you live in the US, please consider finding out how you can participate. It's so easy! All you have to do is put a bag of food out by your mailbox and your letter carrier will pick it up and take it to a local food bank. If your letter carrier doesn't pick up the food, you can take it to a local post office and they will take care of it!
So join the largest food drive in the nation, and help people in your community who need food!
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Monday, May 07, 2007
So anyway, that's the news for today!
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
Friday, May 04, 2007
The ones I've done are red
The ones I haven't done are black
The ones I haven't done but want to do are blue.
Have You Ever:
01. Seen the Grand Canyon
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath
08. Said I love you and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Eaten alligator
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Been to Austria
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sang karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Been in a marching band
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Driven on the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Ridden on a boat down the Danube River
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Dyed your hair
115. Shaved your head
116. Caused a car accident
117. Been elected to public office
118. Skipped all your school reunions
119. Built your own PC from parts
120. Gone back to school
121. Read the Iliad and the Odyssey
122. Ridden a horse
123. Eaten Kangaroo meat
124. Had stitches
125. Toured castles in Europe
126. Had your picture in the newspaper
127. Eaten sushi
128. Sold your own artwork to someone you didn't know
129. Published a book
130. Written poetry
131. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
132. Fired a rifle, shot gun or pistol
133. Had major surgery
134. Had a snake as a pet
135. Gone on an African safari
136. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
137. Visited more foreign countries than US states
138. Visited all 7 continents
139. Lived in a foreign country for more than a year
140. Been swimming in the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans
141. Been to Niagara Falls
142. Lived on both sides of the Mississippi river
143. Sang in a foreign language in front of an audience
144. Taught a child to read
145. Been a DJ