Thursday, July 17, 2014

Influenster #VowVoxBox!

So I got another box from Influenster - a box filled with products for me to test and talk about.  What a neat program!  I seriously love it.  This one was for brides, wedding party members, and wedding guests.  I had indicated that I was going to be a guest/participant in a friend's wedding on my survey, so that's what qualified me, I suppose!  But really, these products are for everyone.

The box contained, Olay Regenerist Luminous, an EcoTools Pure Complexion facial sponge, a Tide To Go Stain remover, a Sally Hanson nail polish in a beautiful light blue, and Pure Silk shaving cream.  Great stuff!  I've tested each one and can say without a doubt that they are all fantastic.  The facial sponge gets my face so clean!  The Olay lotion has already started to make a difference in my skin - my face looks... brighter, I guess is the right word?  I've always loved Pure Silk shaving cream, so no problem there.  :)  The nail polish is so pretty and goes on very smoothly.  And my favorite thing in the box - the Tide to Go pen is something I try to keep with me all the time.  As someone who tends to drop food and get ink stains and other things on my clothes, the Tide To Go has saved my wardrobe many times!  

So thanks, Influenster and thanks to all these great brands to giving me the chance to test these products and talk about them!

Monday, July 14, 2014

It's A...

We let Nathan announce the sex of the new baby to our family.  He cared more about the balloons than he did about the baby brother.  ;)

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Influenster #MKGlam Voxbox

As a member of Influenster, I occasionally receive boxes in the mail with different products to try out.  And what fun I had with this one!  A box from Mary Kay filled with some fantastic summer makeup!  I actually used several of the products in my look for a friend's beach wedding shortly after receiving the box.  There were many wonderful products included - I think my favorites are the brushes that came with the box.  They are very high quality and super nice.  :)  The blush is a beautiful shade and is perfect for my skin tone.  I'm also loving the lip and eye colors!  Also included in the box was a catalog, which I am happily looking through now to see what I want to order.

And here's the look I created from this box's products!

Thanks, Influenster and Mary Kay!  This was a great box!

Monday, May 12, 2014

Monday, March 31, 2014

The end of treatment

We are not going back to the doctor.  I know it seems crazy to stop after only one month, but it's the decision we have made and I believe it was the right one.  There are a few reasons for this.

1. Bedside manner. He did not keep me informed about things I needed or wanted to know, such as my progesterone level after my very first blood test - I didn't know that until after I asked several times. And even then, he said it was 5 on cycle day 25, which indicated my ovulating was "lousy." When I asked for more detail, he didn't give it to me. And then he gave me some really basic details about how everything works in a really condescending tone, as if I hadn't done any research and didn't realize how pregnancy occurs.  AND when he asked me about my c-section, he interrupted me two seconds into my answer and then never came back to it.

2. He really made me angry by telling me how old I was repeatedly in what I believe was a high-pressure tactic designed to get me to do IUI on the first cycle of Clomid, 

3. The treatment was too much pressure for us and was affecting our relationship 

4. The expense of it is just way too high. 

5. The treatment and monitoring was awful.  Medication side effects, transvaginal ultrasounds twice a month, the pain those caused... I don't want it badly enough to put myself through all that right now.  I may change my mind one day, and I still have a few years before this is a dire situation, so for now I'm saying "that's enough."

6. We already have a child and don't need to struggle for another one. So we decided that if it happens, it happens and if it doesn't, we have a beautiful sweet boy and our family is complete.

So even though the sun is setting on this phase of our lives, I am hopeful.  Hopeful that things will work out they way they are supposed to, not the way I try to force them to.  I've decided to give the entire situation to God and say "if you want us to have another child, you're going to have to make that happen," and for now, I'm going to enjoy life and focus on what matters to me right now.  The family I have.  The son I love - who is quite enough to deal with at the moment anyway!

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Positive OPK! Yay!

Yes, this is a positive!  So I should ovulate either tomorrow or the next day!  I've never had such a dark positive before.  So all the times I thought I was ovulating, I guess I really wasn't.  The doctor did say my progesterone last cycle was 5 on CD 25 of my last cycle, which is, as he put it, "lousy."  So there's that.  But look at this test!  The top one is from yesterday and the bottom one is from this afternoon.  There can be no doubt about this result.  I'm super excited to see this.  It means something is going right after all.  :)

Monday, March 24, 2014

Follicles, CM, and Ovulation - Oh My! (CD 15)

Appointment this morning sucked.  He found two follicles, one was 14 and one was 16. He said they were not as big as he would like, so he wants to look at them again tomorrow. But the big problem was the CM. He looked at it under a microscope and said the sperm were just sitting there, not able to move at all. It's too thick. And at this point, he said there isn't really anything we can do to make it thin enough to make it count for this cycle, as I should ovulate really soon. He wants to do an IUI. - in two days. I'm going to be honest - I'm having a panic attack about this. We were going to do three medicated cycles before talking about any kind of procedure, and now I'm scared to do that because he said time was not on our side.
And add to that the fact that he said my left ovary is actually stuck under my uterus. He had a really hard time finding it on ultrasound because it wasn't where it was supposed to be. Scar tissue from the c-section, probably.

It is difficult for me to explain just how much I hate this.  The ultrasound was very painful, for some reason.  Probably because he was searching in there for the missing ovary for such a long time.  He asked me a question about my c-section (whether or not it was rushed) and then cut me off before I could answer him.  We never got back to that subject.  I'm beginning to feel like maybe this is not the doctor for us.  Another thing is, he kept doing the ultrasound when the nurse left the room to prepare the slide of CM so he could check out the sperm.  I was very uncomfortable with it just being me and him in the room without anyone else there.

Rather than going straight for IUI without any preparation time, we have decided to wait and see if anything happens this cycle.  I did a bunch of research and found that drinking lots of water, avoiding dairy and limiting caffeine can help thin CM, so I did that all day and it really did seem to help!  I'm not putting a huge amount of faith in this cycle, but I'm not giving up hope yet either.
This afternoon, I had a faint line on my OPK.  I'm hoping this means I'll have a very good line by tomorrow.  If I can get a positive result tomorrow, that means I'll ovulate either Wednesday or Thursday.  That gives me a few more days to hopefully sort out the CM problem.

So not the best appointment and I'm still a little iffy about this doctor because of it, but there's still hope.  There were two good follicles and a few more that were too small - that means the Clomid did work.  Now it's up to timing and God.  Please, God - let this happen so that I don't have to go through any more of this.